Don’t worry I don’t think I’m God. I just love metaphors and stories. I wonder how real past lives are. Maybe you can pull in the past life that is most relevant to what you need now, not necessarily what your past life is. I don’t know if I believe in past life trauma. There is so much trauma from this life to resolve. Maybe you pick the life you do to work through your past life trauma. Maybe it’s karma.
This may be my lifetime to do something great. Maybe I do this all the time, or I have been working towards it my whole existence. I wonder if I was a witch in a past life. Witches have been a theme lately. They are on the return. I am a witch just learning about her power. I love pendulums and tarot. I love putting an aloe plant on burns. I love sending healing energy and I give massages. I love cooking. I charge my water with positive energy. I transmute negative energy into positive energy, I’m an emotional healer. I’m a witch. Is that a problem? Am I a therapist without a degree?
Sabrina is back. The witches are coming.
YouTube is my teacher. It is a vast, free, school. Although, I have bought courses from YouTube channels. There is an astrology one I’ve been eyeing. There is not a lot of information on Vedic astrology and I find it fascinating. I’m a Leo cusp of Cancer but in Vedic I’m just a Cancer. The world is still evolving. Who knows who is right? Maybe the answer is in the middle.
I was raised Catholic/Presbyterian. I have turned my back on the faith. I was Atheist for years. I don’t know if I believe in God. I don’t know if I believe in a creator. I do romanticize it though. What if there were many Gods? All in the universe. Twin flames, the originals. My Aries goes off exploring the world and I feel for his energy. We are just stars and souls. Travelling in space. What if I made Earth for my Aries to conquer? Bask in the sun my love. Enjoy your Sag moon, explore the nature. Man created.
What if I come down to be with him? What if Lilith is real? What if the thousands of babies that were killed were just our failed attempts to take care of these new creatures? What if it took centuries for parental instincts to be intact? What if genetics took time to evolve and Lilith was blamed for the still borns? What if Lilith created magic on Earth and Adam made fire and buildings?
Paradise Lost? Paradise evolved.
I believe in reincarnation. I believe that heaven and hell are here on Earth. Good and evil are inside us all. We can choose our move at any moment. Run by our emotions, we don’t always make the best choice. Everything happens for a reason; that doesn’t always mean it is a good reason.
I come from a gambling family. My great grandmother, Anna, was a bookie. She was arrested and all four of her kids were left at home. She is passed away now. I lost four grandparents in two years. I wonder if they are haunting me. I wonder if they are up in the spirit realm making bets on my life. Is she still a bookie?
I imagine them choosing to stay in the spirit realm to watch over the family. I have felt haunted since July. Maybe I was just having some post divorce psychotic break. I am skeptical of everything I say, I have seen too much to ignore it though. My friends and I are fascinated by the occult. “There are other worlds than these” – Stephen King, The Dark Tower series
The magic of life is that we don’t know what is true. I do know I refused to get my kids baptised and my family has a problem with that. I feel like it is an insult to the church to baptise a baby with no intention of ever going back to the church. This summer there were 3 moments of ghostly interference that shook me. The first was my phone fell off the kitchen counter and landed exactly flat, shattering the screen into the shape of a tree with roots. The second I was talking to my daughter in the kitchen and it looked as if she was pushed. She fell back suddenly but no one was near her. The third, was after my son’s ear tube surgery, it looked as if he got pulled under water by his feet. His head got dunked. Baptism?
Maybe I am over reaching. Maybe it isn’t ghostly interference. I do feel as if my children are protected though. My daughter’s bully got moved schools for Senior Kindergarten. Not that she was bullied very hard, but the girl did push her a few too many times. Once I saw Ellie ask the girl “Why are you talking to me?” My girl is strong, and she loves punching. Bullies are more of annoyance than anything.
Karma may be what we make of it. If you cheat on your taxes and steal money you might get caught. If you are a good person and share with the world, you develop a good reputation. Putting out good into the world is just the safer choice. You manifest your good. Work hard and you go towards your goals. That is my plan at least. Continue to try to be a good person. Hope to reach my goals. Continue to grow my brand. Do my homework and research. Keep pressing forward. Hope things turn up. Hope to be not poor one day.