My mother is in that phase of her life where things didn’t quite work out how she expected and now she is reading the Bible. It’s horrifying. I was “raised Catholic” which basically means that I went to Catholic schools and was baptised. My grandparents on my father’s side were Presbyterian and were very involved in the church. They did bring me to some church events as a child, but I don’t remember. Honestly, I don’t remember much at all from much childhood. Just moments here and there; blame the PTSD. I do doubt though that I was there very much since my parents were not actually into religion. I’ve always had a problem with that type of religious people, the wavering kind. The kind where it is important when it is convenient. Having to have your child blessed or baptised just to never go back again. That type of religion rubs me of being the ‘looking good for the family’ kind. Getting baptised because ‘grandma would be happy’ kind. I think it would be more offensive to God than not doing it at all.
On the other hand, how will you know if you like something, want to be part of a religion if you have never experienced it? To be part of the community, to learn the lessons, you do need to at least read their books or attend their lectures. I suppose going sometimes, if you get something out of it is fine. I know religion is not for me for a variety of reasons. I have no qualms against it in theory. In theory, there are a bunch of stories, that teach a bunch of lessons, that suggest a bunch of rules for humanity to be better. To control the population. To inspire those to do “the right thing”. My problem is that some rules work for a period of time, but society changes. Apparently, the word of God never changes. If someone in today’s age spoke “the word of God” they would be medicated and locked away with schizophrenia. We are in a day in age where God has to work in mysterious ways. She has to be a super sleuth stalker to do anything. Churches are under attack, atheism is on the rise.
Do I believe in God? One single God? Not most days, but I am spiritual. I will say this, if I were God I would care a lot more about all the problems, projects, and people suffering than if someone believed in me. Would it be nice to get credit? Probably, but God can’t work alone. Here is what I currently believe: The big bang was real. We are a collective and we all work together, for or against to change things. Matter is moved and changed all the time. We influence each other, a collective conscious is there if you just know how to tune into it. Survival of the fittest and the most resilient. I believe in evolution and I believe that it doesn’t matter if I don’t believe in God. If there was a God, and she made all this Earth, which ended up making us and everything on this Earth, maybe she is bored. Maybe she is focused on the weather which has been insane and global warming. Maybe that is her sweet spot. We have free will anyways, it is not like she can come embody us and control us.
I am possibly completely full of shit, but I do think it is something to think about. Don’t be an asshole. Take care of your shit. Believe in God or not, but she isn’t coming with a big check for you. You need to take care of yourself.